I’m taking the rabbits to the vets tomorrow in the pushchair I modified for them for our wedding. I’ve just sold my beautiful car for £240. I won’t be able to afford a new one for a while.
I took a carload of stuff to the tip earlier today to make it easier whenever we emigrate.
And apparently my latest book is on hold until I find out categorically whether or not it can have (plot critical) dinosaurs in it. Early indications suggest not. Stalled, at 70,000 words.
Le sigh. I currently feel like the Von Trapp family, only no-ones letting me on the stage to do the musical number and the Nazis are getting closer with every minute. I feel like I have no choice but to keep my blog going, keep being bright and cheery, keep writing random beauty articles, and keep writing my books, as if there’s nothing wrong, whilst outside in the big wide world people are like “your last name is foreign, why are you in my country?” and inside I’m flipping between male and female like nobody’s business and at home I’m trying desperately to work out how to get my 5 rabbits out of the country before someone legislates that I can’t own property or something else ridiculous. Think this vote thingy was nothing to worry about? Try having a Polish last name in England right now. Work’s mysteriously dried up, when last week I was being inundated with calls and emails about “the busiest time of year.” On the plus side my most recent book has now almost sold 500 copies (490 as of two days ago, sorry I can’t link it from here it’s strictly NSFW, email me if you want to know, good job I use a pen name and it’s mostly marketed in the USA), and the guy who bought my car has just come back to return the sunglasses I left in the door. Which is good because I broke 2 pairs of sunglasses this week and only have that pair left.
The depression and PTSD keep rearing their ugly heads, and today I lost the fight with them again, resulting in them trying to convince me I had PMS cramps, failing, then choosing to attack me with a painkiller-resistant migraine. I spent 6 hours writing an email today. Srsly WTF.