I can’t even…

On Monday morning, one of my friends died of cancer. I spent the day crying and wondering what kind of a messed up universe allows people in their mid-twenties to die.

Then Monday night happened.

It’s been a couple of days now since I watched the news coming in on Monday night. I was about ready for bed when reports of an explosion at Manchester Arena at an Ariana Grande concert were suddenly coming up in the news. Manchester is about an hour’s drive, and it’s the main concert venue for the north of England. I’ve been there to concerts many times for my bands bucket list, as it’s almost always the second tour date (beside London) in England.

I slept fitfully through the night. When I awoke on Tuesday, my heart was in my throat. I was scouring the news reports and praying that the people I knew who had gone to the concert were going to be okay.

As the week has rolled on, more deaths have been confirmed. We’re now up to 22. I knew three of those people.

My heart breaks for all the children who have been hurt, the parents whose children haven’t come home, all the parents whose children are in hospital, who don’t know yet if their children are going to make it, and for all the children whose parents have died, who are going home to an empty house. I am devastated, for all the people who can’t find their loved ones, for all the friends and aunts and uncles lost and left behind.

I have my final exam for university tomorrow. It seems so ridiculous, to be even trying to prepare for something as normal as a test when this has happened.

I can’t even. Anything.

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Author: MsAdventure

I am a twentysomething travel, photography and beauty blogger who occasionally writes about other topics. Within travel, I tend to write mostly about Europe because all the other travel bloggers seem to write about South East Asia. As a writer, I have written articles that are published in Offbeat Bride and on Buzzfeed, and as a photographer, I have taken photographs that are published in local and national news outlets in the UK. I have a blog at www.delightandinspire.com

9 thoughts on “I can’t even…”

  1. Firstly, I am SO sorry for your losses. I know that doesn’t change anything but I want you to know that my heart is breaking for you.

    And second, what happened is so horrendously terrible. My heart goes out to those families too. I couldn’t imagine losing one of my babies or anyone, really.

    I’m sorry this happened. I’m sorry to you, to all the families effected, to the U.K. as a whole. I’m so so so sorry. I hope you can find some peace and I’m here if you ever need to talk. 💕💕💕

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    1. Thank you, although there were loads of people who will have been much worse affected by this than me. There were so many people that lost family members. The fact that anyone would target kids like this… it just cuts into my soul like broken glass. It’s beyond evil.

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    1. Thanks, and I fully agree. Nobody deserved that shit. I’m at the point where I am ok when I don’t think about any of it, then it hits me again, and I’m completely floored by it again, until I eventually stop thinking about it again.


  2. I am sorry. Life likes to throw stuff at us and just sit there and laugh. But you gotta get up, throw your least-favourite mug at life and show that you’re not gonna take it! Be strong ❤


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